Have you ever experience a moment of confusion ? Like all of a sudden your plan crash and you don't know what is the priority anymore. Like a sudden change in your desire or what you want in life ?
Or maybe it just a norm ?
(wandering through random street in Mykonos Island, Greece. If you didnt try then you wouldnt know! but know that every steps you take it comes with a risk)
Like a good research does not necessarily need to follow the plan accurately (that is what i read) . Your knowledge and findings will change it somehow. So can I compare this life with my research ? Maybe isnt it ?
Or maybe you still could not catch up with what i'm trying to say ?
Well look at me. I'm a phD student. I used to be a PTD. I used to work with my father in his factory right after I graduated (including some part time herbalife distributor and some part time gym instructor due to my obsession with Herbalife at that time) . I used to apply for Architecture and Structural Degree in Sheffield but a month before I enrolled I changed the course to Electric and Electronic Engineering. Then after 2 weeks enrollment I did think of changing my course again to Architecture ! But I didnt. I'm not sure either it is a good thing or not but it had happen so no point of regretting or over thinking about it. I'm happy nevertheless.
I worked with my father but after went trough the process for a year, I thought I dont want to proceed. I want another experience. So I grabbed the chance to be a PTD ( I've got the job offer before I graduated) but was called by the government to start working 8 months after I graduated. I was so interested in politic and managing the country but I have no idea about the bureaucracy and how things work. It was such a very interesting experience BUT it is yet not what I 100% want so I decided to change my life condition again.
Here I am, doing phD and a part time writer.
Walla ! I am happy and I think this is what I was looking for.
But cant you see how many big decision/life changing decision I have made so far ? Or let say how many choices I have made but they were not 100% satisfying ? Bad choices ? Is there is any bad choices in life ? Perhaps but if you didn't do it you wouldn't know the outcome. You wouldn't learn. You wouldn't understand yourself better. Life itself is a learning process. Its not about either it is right or wrong.
My life were always at risk. At risk of making the wrong decision. I have read from Richard Branson books, he said life is full of risks. It is not about avoiding risk but how you evaluate each risks before making a decision of which one you should choose.
What is the risk ? How it can effect you ? How to avoid it ? How to overcome it ? What will gain from it ?
And to make the best evaluation is to be honest with yourself !
And once you have chosen something, you have the responsibility to make it work. Performing badly because you dont like your choice is not a sign that it might not be suitable for you. Bad performance is highly related to how you approach things in life including your habits and personality. BUT if you have tried your best and have attained success in that arena but yet still am not happy, that is a sign that maybe it just not for you. Changes is good sometimes. !
And for the Muslims, it is very important to make istikharah - which means asked God's guidance before making the choice. If you already have the answer deep down your heart I'm afraid istikharah might not work for you, but maybe you can do solat hajat to ask Allah to bring goods in your choice.
note : well yeah me too need motivation. that is why I write. sometimes its a bit confusing between 'i'm 28 now should I get married before I'm 30' or 'do I want marriage ?' or it just a peer pressure due to my age but it is not what I want yet ? So defining WHAT YOU WANT is highly important right ?
Lots of Love,
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